natural highs;-)
1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3 A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.

12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (orstrawberry)

13. A long distance phone call.

14. A bubble bath.

15. Giggling.

16. A good conversation.

17 The beach

18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.

19. Laughing at yourself.

20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

21. Running through sprinklers.

22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

24. Laughing at an inside joke.

25. Friends.

26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

30. Playing with a new puppy.

31. Having someone play with your hair.

32. Sweet dreams.

33. Hot chocolate.

34. Road trips with friends.

35. Swinging on swings.

36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and
drinking your favorite tipple.

37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without
feelingstupid.

38. Going to a really good concert.

39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger

40... Winning a really competitive game.

41. Making chocolate chip cookies...

42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

43. Spending time with close friends.

44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.

45. Holding hands with someone you care about.

46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad)
never change

47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.

48. Watching the _expression on someone's face as they open a much desired
present from you.

49. Watching the sunrise.

50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another
beautiful day.

1 month
i leave in 1 month.

hey did you guys know the 12 days of christmas are from christmas day to january 6, the little christmas!?! aparently thats when the three wise men came and there was some more celebration. huh.. learn something new every day.

just a thought
* Did I remember to sleep in? Take lots of pills?
Commit irreversible sins? -- Did I? Did I? --
Did I remember to keep your beer as full as mine ?
Did I remember to say cheers? -- Did I? Did I? --
Did I at least try to make sure everyone had a good time?
-- Had the best time? --
Did I remember to stay up late, drinkin' for the fun;
Singing for the taste?
Did I run outside to kiss the rain under electrical skies?
...I hope so *

bve prepared, sentimental emotions coming out NOW!
so i had therapy tonight... and i was talking to my therapist about everything thats going on in my life about work and school and friends and getting ready to move and the whole fear of saying good-bye and stuff. and about how i wanted to leave with no strings attached, but i kind of let in to my emotions and allowed myself to get attached to things. then my therapist said you know thats the only bad thing about things that make you happy, the sucky down fall of everything, when you eventually have to say goodbye, and leave things to move on without you, while you move on as well. you know i never thought i'd say this but i really have so much here, i mean so man things that i've overlooked for so long, and ive finally realized that, and now i must move on. and part of me says i want ot stay, but this hudge overwhelming part of my says i have to go, cause i will never forgive myself if i miss out on this opportunity, and that parts right. i would regret not moving to nevada, and life is not supposed to be full of regrets, you should never regret. *sigh* and all of those people in my life who have touched me, and all of those people in my life who i love, will always love me... and even though this is good bye, it doesnt mean its goodbye forever, and to some people it may be, but you know what, its ok. and im ok with it, and this is a hudg life altering decision i am making, and im so damn proud of myself, and so...yeah. i just needed to share that with someone, and writting to you made me think that i had to share it. i guess cause i never let myself be close, and that no matter how far away i am well always have that same relationship... when we see eachother its a great adventure, and when we dont.... its our own adventure. and i know that well always have our once in a blue moon random talks every now and then. and thats cool. I'm ok with myself. im growing changing and spinning around in circles. i love life, and you, who ever you may be will have been someone who helped me realize i love life. and for that i am gratefull. you made your mark on my heart. thank you.

randome blurps of insignificant nonsense
so my roomate hannah has a puppy. really excited about that. i still have the big room too.

i had an excellent thanksgiving break, i got to see those who really matter, even though it wasnt for long. best time at ED's house, really i enjoyed myself much. i think this break made me realize some things... like who it is in my life that i over look, and who i look to much into, but shouldn't. im really getting excited about this move, its really about time it happened now. pretty much 5 weeks. yuppers. well thats all i got to say fro now. i think tomarrow were putting up the chirstmas tree here at home, last time well get to do that as a family, cuase really after december Amber has her own house and I have my apartment in Vegas. OH dads birthday was today, i got him Rocky and Bullwinkel on DVD, tis awsome.

my apartment pictures.
here is the website to my apartment... its a 3 bedroom so look at the floor plan, and i have the second biggest room with a walk in closet. :-)

http://www.apartmentguide.com/Property/details.asp?wsv_psPropertyID=4906&wsv_psReturnTo=2&wsv_psRownum=&wsv_qsSessionID=223119836&wsv_qsListType=1&wsv_qsPartner=-1&wsv_qsGeoKey=1,34,94&wsv_qsKeyword=falling%20water&wsv_qsRegisteredFlag=0&wsv_qsBrowseStatus=0&

SMILE!

my apartment pictures.
here is the website to my apartment... its a 3 bedroom so look at the floor plan, and i have the second biggest room with a walk in closet. :-)

http://www.apartmentguide.com/Property/details.asp?wsv_psPropertyID=4906&wsv_psReturnTo=2&wsv_psRownum=&wsv_qsSessionID=223119836&wsv_qsListType=1&wsv_qsPartner=-1&wsv_qsGeoKey=1,34,94&wsv_qsKeyword=falling%20water&wsv_qsRegisteredFlag=0&wsv_qsBrowseStatus=0&

SMILE!

CHANCE (n.): a coin with two sides that one tosses into the air as many times as one wants. The odds remain the same.

hmmm....
Heaven (n.): (1) a place somehow high above the clouds, yet deep inside your soul; (2) a place of complete peace, of total and utter happiness; (3) a place that is greater than the sum of everything you will ever be or could ever imagine to be; (4) a place we all want to get to, but just not yet. NO, not yet.


i was looking through some old pictures and boxes, getting ready to move and stuff, and i found my 8th grade letter to myself for when i graduated. i found this little evelope in it with this news paper clipping.... lets all guess what it was. i cried. i havent really talked about laura or really thought about it too much over the past few years, i mean shes always been in the back of my head, but... then i tok more stuff out of the envelope and there were pictures of her memorials at school that we made when she past away. idk... jsut my randome thought of the day. hmmmm....

details.
since i am moving across the country and im so sick and tired of the same questions byt hundreds of different people, heres the details.
NO i am not moving there to become a show girl, though may become one as a part time job, ;-) i am going to school there at Univ, of Nevada Las Vegas. Im majoring in special education, early childhood, and i am having the shittiest time trying to schedual my classes. Im going to be living in an apartment in Summerlyn, a richy-rich town in northern vegas, and my roomate Kasie, who seems so freakin awsome, is there awaiting my arrival, and our other roomate who ever that may be. my address there is going to be as follows:
1350 N. Town cneter Drive
APT. 3024 LAsvegas NV, 89144

yupp, im living in a 3 bedroom apartment over looking the pool, trees, golf course, million dollar houses, and the mountains in the background. my room has a wlak in closet, and is supposed to be quite large.

i am already missing my family and friends so much and im not even gone yet, i plan on taking horse back ridding lessons this summer while im there... ill be there mostly year round. and i really want to learn to surf... but well see how long i'll be able to deal with the traffic to LA every weekend.

so thats it. all the details of the move. oh and for those who are wondering what ever happened with the whole peace crops thing... im still working on it, its something i really want to do.